So I lied at the end of the last post. I never quite made it to my sketchbook yesterday. I just couldn't get focused... I am going to try again here in a little bit.
Today I indulged and bought a two disc CD set of various classical pieces
(I like to listen to classical music on the weekends and evenings to relax). When I got home, before sitting down to do my weekly coupon clipping, I put one of the CDs in the player in the living room and the bastard wouldn't effing play it! Oh, I was pissed... So much for the classical music calming me down, right? Then I popped it into the laptop and it came up just
fine. I am thinking the laser on the CD player in the living room is going or has gone out. Which is just fan
fuckingtastic....
I miss Collin... I know, lame right? He officially started his new schedule today... Instead of working Friday & Saturday 10am-7pm and Sunday-Tuesday 9am-6pm he now works Friday 10am-
9pm Saturday
8am-7pm, Sunday
10am-9pm and Monday
10am-9pm, with Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday off. So, I now effectively see him
EVEN LESS on
MY weekend. Don't take this the wrong way.
I am not mad at Collin, he had no control over his new schedule, and we are just thankful he
has a job. I just miss him when he's gone and I am here alone
(with the cat of course but sometimes she isn't the best company). But, there is a silver lining, the schedule will probably change again in a few months if not sooner. It's just the waiting.
It doesn't help these feelings that I am reading
The Time Traveler's Wife. It is such a good book, but I don't
want to finish it because I am fairly certain it's gonna be
very sad. Just the undertones and the foreshadowing and what has recently happened in the story, all of it paints a picture of suffering. Hopefully I am not ruining the storyline for anyone... The book is awesome though, and I could be wrong maybe it has a miraculously happy ending...
As of right now
(7:27 pm Sunday, September 13th) my new niece has still not made her entrance into the world. Hopefully now
(much to Jenn's discomfort but my convenience) she will wait until Friday evening or Saturday, but knowing my luck it will be tomorrow night...
(Wouldn't it be creepy if I am right?) At least there wouldn't be anymore anxiety about that, and hopefully my dreams will not be so
weird... Thursday night every time I closed my eyes I dreamt I was at the office, and at one point Jenn was there with Tyson
(Cassidy's dad which is why it is so effing weird) and Jenn was giving birth to a baby... Then today, I took a nap, and at one point my dream was so surreal but almost believeable I didn't know if I was awake or not. I dreamt that my sister and Jordan had come over and parked on my front lawn. And I couldn't understand how they got in the house because I know I locked the deadbolt, but it seemed almost real.... I was so freaked out that when I really did wake up I had to go take a shower, and splash some cold water on my face.
Right after my shower my mom called and we talked for a bit. I yet again dodged talking about Jenn, I know that if my mom knew I had just talked to her Friday she would ask about when Jenn has the baby and if I would pick her up or something like that. As heartless as this may sound, no, I will absolutely
NOT pick my mother up to be at the birth of Jenn's third child. Reason number one: I don't know how much time
I will have to get there from here, without any weird side trips into McMinnville. Reason number two:
(and don't judge) Jenn
does not want her there, last time
(when Jordan was born obviously) mom caused way to much tension and Jenn almost bit her head off at one point... As hurt as she might be at first my mom will get over the fact that Jenn didn't invite her to be there
(it sure as hell isn't my place to be extending invitations... LOL), and just like everything else it will only be used on rare occasions for guilt trips.
I need water and graphite therapy...
(I am thirsty and going to sketch...)