Don't Laugh At My Pee Or You'll Make Me Self Conscious

Alrighty... Here we go (granted if you have been on Myspace this isn't that surprising)....

The Before:
The Uber Awesome After!:
And I absolutely love it!! I haven't had anymore headaches, it is super easy to wash and dry, and takes only a few minutes for me to make it look good. For those of you who didn't know me or weren't around me a few years ago (when I met Collin) this is pretty much what my hair looked like then. Collin loves it too. I think he was getting tired of me smacking him in the face with my hair while we were sleeping... Every time I'd toss and turn there was a good chance my hair would whip right into his face as he slept. I am just thankful he never choked on my hair...

So new year, new hair, and hopefully a new job. We'll see, I have stuff out there... In fact I should probably be working on another application right now, but I have time (that particular job doesn't close for two weeks).

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Okay, I felt guilty for being so laissez faire about that job application so I just went and completed it and submit it. Are you happy now?! You made me feel guilty... I am not sure how, but you did...

Oh, I saw my niece this week. She is growing like a weed!!! She is only eleven, yet her hands and feet are bigger than mine! The top of her head comes up to my eye level now! So she's eleven years old and already about five foot three inches. It's just cah-razy! I mean, I remember when she was just a little baby. And looking at her is such a trip because she looks so much like Jenn, but at the same time I see so much of Tyson in her. She is a very accurate depiction of both of them. She definitely got her dad's heighth, I am guessing she will be taller than me within the next year or two... When I turn thirty she will turn eighteen that same year... That's only six years from now! Time just flies so quickly...

Craziness.

Well I think I am gonna go unwind a bit before bed, this week has been exhausting. I am so glad tomorrow is Friday... By unwind, I mean that more than likely I am going to look at some more jobs... Peace Out, and much love to those who take the time to read this.

It's Like That Acne Medication, I'm Being Proactive

I am tired. I still haven't had a chance to post the new pictures I have on Myspace. It seems that whenever I am online at home now, I am just looking and applying for another job... Just not enough hours in the day. I hope something comes through soon. So freakin much is going on in my life right now, it's madness. I know it will all work out as it should, but the waiting for it to happen is killing me. Like a doctor, I must have patients... Or is it patience? Hmm. Either way. Maybe, since Grey's Anatomy is a repeat, tonight I will finally get on the ball and post those mother effing pictures. I make no promises anymore. This weekend my goal is to do nothing (except maybe work on some application stuff). It's sunny outside right now, and I wish I was at the park, or just outside in general. I hear the typewriter going so I know it is safe for me. Sounds kind of paranoid right? Ask and I will tell.

It's kind of like how I was talking with a friend and in his last message he said we need to get back to our plans for world domination. In my response to him I agreed, but said we need to be more cautious because you know that somewhere some dude (or dudette) is sitting at a government computer monitoring stuff like that. And, I don't know about him, but I sure don't want the NSA, CIA, FBI, DEA, or HSA or some other creepy government acronym breaking down my door at two in the morning to arrest me. Tis the world we live in. I completely pictured how it would all go down. Since then I have been sleeping in a night shirt because I don't want to be arrested topless... Now you know why Collin. Okay, I really don't know how that ties into the typewriter thing but it sounded good at first.

I saw my mommy this weekend. She finally has her own place in McMinnville, and she is loving it. It's an okay lil one bedroom apartment. Perfect for her. And for once she was a "mommy" and listened to my problems without making any asinine remarks (like she typically does on the phone). It was a nice visit.

I need to finish processing these checks here. So peace out for now, there may be more later. Depends on the rest of the day's events.

I'd Apologize For Bleeding On Your Shirt

This thing has been taunting me. Everytime I have wanted to post I have gotten distracted by other things I needed to get done, finally I have a moment to do whatever it is I do on here...

Big things are happening, still not sure about the "when" but they will happen. And as soon as I have definitive news I will post it.

Amazingly it has actually been sunny here for the last week almost. It's still cold though. Standing in the sunshine feels so freakin' great.

This weekend I am going to go see my mom in her new place. That is assuming she calls me on Thursday to confirm the plans. Hopefully I can find some sort of furniture that I can take with me for her (she doesn't have any living room furniture yet). I am going to talk to my boss and see if he has anything in the backroom he wouldn't mind parting with. While I am visiting mom Collin will be visiting his grandma.

We watched the Inauguration this morning at work. It was awesome to see the immense sea of people that swarmed to DC. I will be happy if President Obama can do just some of the things he pledged to do. The man has a lot on his plate and cleaning up after the last administration will take some time.

There are so many things going on right now, but I can't really talk about it because I want to wait until the timing is better... Hopefully tomorrow I will get some new pics up on Myspace and maybe here too.

Ugh, there is so much but I don't know what else to say...

Pizza!

Everyday Is A Panic Attack Dear...

I have made a decision... (I bet the suspense is killing you.)

I finished reading Men Are From Mars, Women Are From Venus and I found it to be a very interesting and insightful book. I think anyone could benefit from reading it, whether in a relationship, casual dating, single, or whatever. It just has some really interesting insight into how people think in general. I hate to admit it (but I can) the book made me realize some things that I do that aren't beneficial to me. Am I saying that it is a cure-all for peoples lives and relationships (romantic and/or platonic)? Absolutely not! But it is really interesting to read.

Oh-a-My-a-God! I love this freaking song!!! And I have no clue why.... "Shut Up and Let Me Go" by The Ting Tings. I really have no idea why I like it so much but I do. I am listening to my Pandora station while I am sitting here. I just got done doing the bills for the month.... I hate having to do the bills, but at least I know that each month my bills are paid and that some day (preferably sooner than later) I will have all my creditors paid. Well, our creditors. Yay for credit cards! They are handy in an emergency though!

Which is a great lead-in for my weekend...

Saturday we had planned on finally tackling the spare bedroom (computer room/Spaz's room) and getting it situated. I know, I know... We have lived here for damn near a year (crazy to think about...) and we still haven't completely unpacked... And there really is no excuse for it. We just haven't done it... But we need to because one of my new years goals is to get back into my art, which means I need an area for doing so... I digress. So, we planned on working on this project after we got back from my IL's (had to go out and pick up some mail). When we got home I went to check on the laundry I had going when we left. I had put a load in the dryer and one in the washer. The dryer wasn't going so I was like, "Score! Before we get started I can swap out the loads, put stuff away and start the next load in the washer." Then I realized that though the dryer was stopped it hadn't even come close to completing the cycle. I checked the clothes and sure enough they were still really damp. I pushed the start button and it just made this buzzing sound. SHIT! While Collin looked up what could be wrong, I looked up new dryers. From everything he found it seems that the bearings went bad and the drum seized, which basically means it died. The dryer had been Grams' and had led a long and healthy life (it was about twenty to twenty five years old!). Luckily, Sears was having a sale and we were able to get a new dryer (ordered online to be picked up at the store) for $255.99 (this is where the credit card was nice to have on hand... with an available balance.). Then came the issue of getting rid of the old dryer, we went to the dump and paid $5.50 to leave it with all the other dead appliances. It was kind of sad actually to see all these busted appliances grouped together in this sad little area of the dump.... Anyways, after we ditched the old dryer we went to Sears and picked up the new one. It is nice (not my dream dryer) and takes up a little less space in the laundry room, and does a really great job... Drying stuff... What else did you expect it to do? It's a freakin' dryer!

Another awesome thing about this weekend...

Sunday night, we were watching Nostradamus 2012 on the History channel (we like to watch random stuff like that) and then around ten we decided to check the news and the weather and toggle back and forth between the news and Nostradamus. I wanted to see the weather because it was really windy and raining cats and dogs. It was about 10:25, and I knew the weather was about to be on in about five minutes, all of a sudden the lights dim and then went out all together! It sucked hardcore. And of course we didn't have one of the fifty million flashlights we own on the freaking coffee table... I was able to feel around for the candle lighter that was on the coffee table. It wouldn't have been so bad if it was daytime, or we were already in bed because (I am woman enough to admit this...) I am completely and utterly terrified of complete darkness. And no I don't know how I handle camping, but I can and do. I had to have Collin turn on a flashlight so there was at least a little ambient light... Sad I know... The power didn't come back on until around three in the morning... I think a branch or tree must have taken down a line.

Yummmy... I am drinking Pepsi with about a shot worth of Buttershots, which is butterscotch booze. Making me happier.

As for the decision I made (yeah, I bet you thought I was just leading you on in the beginning of this post...), I have decided that I will look at other possibilities for work. I am not looking really hard, but if something comes my way and interests me and is up my alley I will apply for it. I need to do this for me. I am tired of going through the same shit day in and day out. I simply don't have the energy to do it anymore. I am only gonna be twenty four this month, but this job makes me feel a lot older. It may just be time for a change. If I get something else, then I get something else. I am not gonna quit unless I definitely have another job. It should be interesting... That's for sure. I promise to keep everyone posted.

"I am a young soul in this very strange world hoping I could learn a bit bout what is true and fake..."

Peace Out To All The Homies!

Often Times Those Words Get Tangled Up In Lies

I realized while I was trying to do something totally unrelated that I need to renew my freakin' driver's license before my birthday.... Yay me! Psh... Damn responsiblities, and adult type shit...

So, at work today at about 3ish maybe, it started to rain pretty hard. Now it had been all sunny and stuff until about noon, and then some clouds started popping up, but it was still fairly sunny. When it started raining like that Renee and I looked out the window in the bookkeeping office just as some snow started to mix with the rain. We're like, "Oh, look, there is snow mixed in the rain..." Then it suddenly turned into all SNOW! They were huge fluffy flakes that almost looked fake. Just as suddenly as it started it slowed and looked like it was turning back into rain, and then it picked up again. I said to Renee, "Keep Vikki out of here, she'll hate to see this shit..." It all but stopped then, and Vikki walked in there asking something. Naturally it was at that exact freakin' moment that it just started snowing like a mofo. After a couple roller coaster minutes more it cleared up and got sunny again. All this happened over the course of maybe five minutes. It was totally random.

I have had so much stuff going through my head the last couple days, I swear my head will 'splode into a million gooey brain giblets... I have a lot of things to think about and consider, and some of it may require me to leave my comfort zone. I know I have a really great group of people to turn to for support, but I think most of this is stuff that I need to handle and figure out for myself. And there is no easy answer for any of it... It's like a long, drawn out game of tug of war is going on in my heart and head. What are you supposed to do when they disagree, but your head is winning the arguments (because it has my best interests on top priority) ? I guess it's one of life's situations that you either stay where you feel safe and comfortable, or you take the plunge and hope for the best. Right now, I think I just have my toe in, testing shit out before I commit to anything. While I tell myself I am happy with shit as it is, I look back over my blogs and realize that's probably not really the case and I am just putting on the happy face. It's kind of like the battered spouse syndrome: I don't leave because I am afraid of being "alone," but I don't want to stay because it's not healthy for me to be here. Or maybe it's more like Stockholm Syndrome; I, the hostage, have begun to relate to my captors.... Eww, that's a terrifying thought, isn't it? At the same time I want to tell myself that this feeling/urge will pass, but I am not so sure this time (it has gone away before)... See what I mean, I haven't even really elaborated on what the issue is and I am sure you are just confused as I am because what I am feeling could apply to so many different aspects of my life.

Now I am getting distracted because Collin is playing golf on the Wii, well he was... Now he cheated and shut off the Wii because he got a water hazard on the ninth hole after being at -2 up until then.... Pshaw.

I am going to watch the news and go night night now.

Good night moon!

Holy Crap It's 2009!

We are officially in a new year now. I just can't believe it.

For New Years Eve we stayed home and played on the Wii. It was fun. Today we got a new game for the Wii I wish we would have had last night. It's called Game Party, and the games it has are Skee Ball, Darts, Trivia, Ping Cup (beer pong basically minus the beer), Shuffle Board, Hoop Shoot, and Table Hockey. It is a BLAST! And it would be an awesome game to play at parties (obviously). I am really really good at darts, and Collin totally annihilates me at shuffle board.

I finally got the pictures from the cah-razy winter weather we had for the past two weeks posted up on myspace. That should be another of my goals for this year, not to procrastinate so much.... Well dinner is done and I am hungry so I am going to end this more abruptly than I had planned. Adios! (We're having enchiladas for dinner!)