Too much.... Way too much going on all at once... I know the picture blogging was an epic fail. It figured that after deciding I was going to do that I would have things to blog about that weren't easily conveyed through pictures...
A big piece of news is that I have had an epiphany with regards to my job and the future of my career. (I kind of already knew this but...) I deserve much better than the place I am at, and there is no reason I can't achieve better. I have begun looking for better opportunities. If I find something soon, it would be awesome. I am tired, ALL THE TIME. This place has become such a drain on me mentally, physically, and emotionally. I believe the technical term would be depression.
I recently read an article that talked about "Six Signs It's Time To Find A Better Job," and one of the signs alarmingly applied to me: "If you frequently have nightmares about your job/workplace." Well, thats me and my job in a nutshell.
Oh, and for the first time ever I terminated an employee. It was difficult and regardless of the situation it is something I don't think anyone would ever want to do.
In other news, Collin is doing well at his assignment in Portland, but we still have no definites about how long, or if it will become permanent.
It is just one of the many things that are constantly on my mind. I like consistancy and not knowing how long his position will last is unnerving, especially when coupled with me wanting to change jobs. But, I never did see myself as someone who would have everything come to me easily. I know all will work out as it should, when it should.
This last weekend was awesome. Collin and I had a great time on Saturday. We went to a Winterhawks game at the Rose Garden, and just had a blast. They lost, but it was still a great game. Went to a shoot out, so it wasn't like they got stomped on in the first period or something.
Hurry up and wait. I am tired of that. I feel like everything is on hold while waiting for certain things to fall into place, and I am tired of it. I am retaking control of my future.
Ugh, I don't like going through temp agencies for work if I can avoid it. One of the biggest difficulties I will have in this process is scheduling interviews and such. I NEVER miss work, or take time off.... For anything... So how will I go about this without raising the alarm to the owners of my company? I guess I will figure it out...
I am sure there will be happier posts to come.
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