Heads One Minute...

Tails the next...

I feel wishy washy, and flip floppery.

One minute it's like, "House only! Absolutely no apartments!" But, the more and more I look the more and more I am realizing that an apartment would be the best bet for the time being.

I must admit (even though I have seen some really nice apartments) I am utterly terrified that we will get into a lease and have these super wretched neighbors. I have hope that in the communities we would be interested in the possibility of truly nasty neighbors is far more limited than, say, where we lived in Salem...

I guess there will always be sacrifices until we are able / ready to buy.

I will be extremely picky about apartments though. It's not just about the money we would be saving, I still want to have some of the amenities we have here. Okay, most of the amenities. Like a washer and dryer in the unit. One thing I could totally do without? A freaking fireplace. Sadly, they appear to be pretty standard in the "nicer" complexes. We have not used ours at all... Oh, and did I mention we are fairly certain there is a wasps nest in the chimney? The floo is tightly closed. I am hoping they don't wake up until AFTER we move.

We are on the precipice of no return. I am dropping the sixty day notices off tomorrow; one in the mail and one in the "Manager's Box."

That freaking balloon is still all floaty and shit... The balloon Collin got me with the arrangement from Edible Arrangements is still at full "power." Two freaking weeks later! Cah-razy... Mylar.

Last night was one of those bastard nights where I just could not switch off my brain. I didn't fall asleep until sometime around midnight. I honestly don't know when exactly it was; I just know that it was a fitful four-odd hours of sleep (if you can call it that) that was mostly made up of flashes of "dreams" and tossing and turning. My plan is to go to bed here in the next hour or so. I might read for a little bit. I just know that I must get a full night's sleep, or I am going to be even more worthless tomorrow than I was today.

I need to start the dishwasher, and then I am going to look at some places until I am sick of it for tonight...

Brownies!