This Is An Illusion

My mind is a dangerous thing right now. One moment it is calming and reassuring and the next it is screaming and slathering with frustration and fear.

I think I am holding up pretty well... I am not good at not having a plan. It just creates this overwhelming loop of scenarios. Every time I am on here looking at places I feel extremely bi-polar. One moment I am excited and hopeful of all the prospects and then I am suddenly angry or depressed because of the whole time thing.

I know, this probably sounds like a repeat of some post... Like my last one... LOL. That's just the way it will probably be for the next few weeks at least. I use this more as a vent / method of processing my thoughts / outlet for otherwise abnormal thoughts and/or feelings. It is also for the entertainment of the reader, but at my discretion. In layman's term: if Alicia suffers so does the audience! Yea, think about that for a while with the knowledge that I am also getting ever closer to the half marathon....

Just imagine the posts that will bring... Actually, I think they will be positive messages of awesomeness and excitement... Just this one little hurdle of where the hell will I be living when I get to that half marathon. Just a minor detail.

We discussed it and if the place we really are lusting after is available still at the end of March (or if by mid-March we can convince the rental company to do it) I know I can budget for us to be able to pay rent on that place while we finish out the lease here. Basically, we would be paying a rent for both places in April... It would make the moving in process nice and leisurely. Whatever... I think I need to just let that place go... But I don't think I can until it is seriously taken, and gone...

Dammit. I hate moving. Especially with the deadline to give our sixty day notice is fast approaching. In fact it is Leap Day. I am hoping that this will be a thing of luck... Lucky Leap Day, right? (Just lie and agree with me, okay?)

Once we have a place on lock down it won't be an issue... And I will stop rambling on like a broken record about the mental and emotional instability it is causing me.

Crap, I need to go print the map for the run tomorrow. Part of the route is unfamiliar to us. Six and a half miles, and it is NOT around the lake!!! Score.

I just ordered a pair of compression calf sleeves to hopefully help with the shin splints / leg fatigue / post run recovery. That is what they are meant to do.

Avocado.