Thursday, October 2, 2014

Waiting and Waiting and the Art of Breaking Hearts

That about sums up where we are at in the home buying process. Our file should be off to the USDA now, but they are working at 31 business days to process a file... So yea. We may or may not hit our closing date on time. I am still hopeful that we will, but it adds a little extra stress because of the ripple effect the uncertainty of WHEN we will move causes. Not only am I juggling when to submit our 30 day notice on our townhouse, but also when to give the daycare their required two weeks written notice of the wee monster's withdrawal from their program.... Oh well. Taking it all in stride; I recognize that this is all stuff that is well out of my control.

Because the next few weeks aren't busy enough on their own with the upcoming move in the next six weeks, I have also added a ton of fun activities because I don't need to sleep. Haha. No, seriously, they are great ways to help pass the time, and I have scheduled out everything left we need to do by the weekends we have left at our rental.

This weekend we have the coast and a dental cleaning for Collin on Saturday. And Sunday (which this will be pretty much all the Sundays to come) we have chores around the house and family visit time with Collin's mom, aunt and sister. We are also working to have a couple visits at his aunt's house because she has agreed to watch the little one on moving day, and we want her house to feel comfortable and familiar.

Next weekend I have my high risk driver's class from 9am until 5:30pm. This is what I must do for the diversion program to keep my speeding ticket from August off my record. That and the $160 presumptive fine I had to pay. While I'm enjoying that, Collin will be enjoying a day with our daughter, including taking her to get her flu shot. I have mixed feelings about flu shots, more so than any other vaccination (which I am totally for as it helps prevent common diseases). I think, like all her vaccinations prior, she will be fine. My hopes are that it will do what it is supposed to, we won't get sick from her being a potential carrier, and that she won't have any icky side effects after the shot. I've heard that some people might feel bleh for a couple weeks after the shot. We shall see.

The weekend after that will be an early Thanksgiving with my paternal extended family. I am excited to see everyone, and for everyone to meet my tiny human. It'll be interesting to hear who she looks more like from my side of the family. We always get mixed reactions because she looks soooo much like both of us.

And then we come to the weekend before Halloween, which we will be going to the company Halloween party. Should be fun.

And then somehow we land at the first of November and it's a trip to the coast and sometime in the weeks following we will be moving... It will probably zip by, and I plan to enjoy every second I can.

Lately at work I feel like I am crushing my sales guys and my customers with bad news. Delayed products, and such... I've learned to do it in a way that isn't too painful, but it still makes me a little sad. And then I remember it's all out of my control and I can only do what I do, and then I laugh and go running over the lawn chasing the Canada geese that hang out here....

Okay, maybe I don't do the lawn and the chasing, but still.

More and more lately I find myself fantasizing about not doing this job any more and doing what I love. Then I remember that I need my salary until I can match it doing what I love. And to do that I need to finish a degree and establish myself, unless I can finagle something with my current company. I just know that customer service is a wretched business and as much as I love it and am amazing at it, it is killing my faith in humanity just as quickly as commuting is. Oh, well. I know it is not forever, but as thirty hides just around the corner is seems like it has been, and could continue to be.

If I could figure out how people make money blogging, I would do that, but to find that niche and get a massive following seems so daunting. I'd rather be using my time when the kiddo is in bed gaming for stress relief, but even that isn't happening right now as we prepare to move. I barely even manage to get a run in unless it's on the weekend.

Unless I give up sleeping I feel like I am never going to find time to do all the me things I want to do; school, running, gaming, art. This is partially fine, because I'd rather spend every waking moment when troublemaker is up playing with her. She is more interesting and entertaining to me than anything. And might I add she is also the best stress reliever. Her goofy smile melts away every stress in my mind.

I don't even know where this post has got to at this point. All I know is that I have a dream, and though it is not nearly as grand as dreamers before me, it is mine. That said, if you want to help me live mine, share this blog, with anyone you think would get the slightest amusement or advice out of it.

Seriously, I will send you a personalized valentine card if you share my blog and help me build my following.

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No pressure. Just know I'd help you live your dream if I could. ;-)

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