If I Wanted A Smart Ass Remark I'd Just Listen To The Voices In My Head

Saturday was my twenty-fourth birthday. Yay me! Collin got me this gorgeous little orchid plant. Th girls at work chipped in and bought lunch on Friday. Saturday I did nothing (for the most part), we just rented movies, got Chinese and drank. God I love vodka. I tried this "Holiday Edition" Pomegranate 7-up that we bought a couple weeks ago, and it was pretty good... It was even better with some Absolut Vodka. In fact, it was part of the reason I drank as much as I did... Sadly now we are out of the good vodka (the Absolut) and need to get more... Drinking may not be the healthiest thing when the world is crapping on your head, but a few cocktails on the weekend can help you forget the crap that is happening otherwise.... (Kind of alcoholic sounding, eh?) It's nothing that serious yet, but the booze helped to make Step Brothers funnier.

My sister called me on my birthday, as did my mom who kind of forgot it was actually my birthday but I told her it was okay. Subconsciously she knew and that's why she called me as soon as she got her new cell activated (at least that's what I told her so she wouldn't get to upset at herself. I know her memory isn't that great since her strokes, and I know she knows when my birthday is it's a matter of keeping track of the days as they pass.). My brother sent me birthday wishes on myspace, and my niece called me as well.

I just can't get over how fast she seems to have grown up, not that she is "grown up," but rather quickly reaching that point. She told me about this boy that she has been friends with for a few years, and how he is her valentine (**eyes boggling out of head** she's ONLY eleven!!) and how he brought her chocolates at school. She then told me how she pointed out to the boy that it wasn't Valentine's Day yet, and his response was, "I know, but I was too excited to wait until then." How freaking cute is that?!?!!? I have a present/project I am planning on for her, things just need to simmer down around here so that I can start working on it...

In other news, still no new amazing job... Or should it be amazing new job.... Hmm... Well I told two of my three bosses last week that I am looking for another job. The third one does not know, but will probably be informed here in the next two weeks. S(one of the owners) says that I can't leave and that they have to find a way to keep me. I explained, given the circumstances of my situation (which I won't be elaborating on here for a while, if you want to know you can message me on myspace...) that I have to look out for whats best for me and Collin, and that may mean me getting a much better paying job. And I am not gonna use my "leverage" to get them to pay me more, I know if they could technically afford it they would pay me better. And oh my god as I read what I have typed I realize it sounds like I am pregnant.... I am not, nor does the issue have anything to do with my marriage. Like I said if you want details look me up on myspace. Yea, the next month or two are gonna be hell, but I think I will be okay... One way or another, it will all be good.

I hope something comes my way soon, I am getting tired of feeling like a prostitute... Seriously, that's how job hunting makes me feel. You have to be all, "I am awesome, look at my assets, you know you want this...." And everytime I send out my resume or fill out an application I can't help but wonder, "Am I ever going to hear back about this?" And when and if they do call me will I even remember the effing position I applied for?

I really truly love pandora.com. If you are unfamiliar with pandora it is a free personalized online radio station website where you put in artists you like and they play songs by them as well as artists with similar sounds that they think you will like. I have actually found a couple new bands I like this way. I also love the way they explain "why" they chose to play that song for you. Like for Navy Taxi by Kate Nash, the reason why they played it (other than the fact I like the song) : Based on what you've told us so far, we're playing this track because it features mellow rock instrumentation, mild rhythmic syncopation, acoustic sonority, acoustic rhythm piano and minor key tonality. I personally have never read that much into why I listen to a song.... I think I have mentioned this in a blog before... But yeah, it's just awesome....

And I must be tired because I am starting to ramble... I am outtie like a fresh belly button.