... Well so do I.
A word of warning, this blog was written through out the day on scraps of paper as I thought of things I felt like talking about. Lately, I just haven't had time to get online during lunch, so I have started "taking notes" during the day. I doubt they will all make sense....
I wish my Dr. Pepper can sang to me while I drank it. Between sips obviously.
My mind is in a dark place today. There were a few moments where I just felt like screaming. I talked to someone briefly this morning and it made me feel a lot better, but still not great.
I think I am a glutton for punishment.
I love where I work, and the people I work for, but it's really starting to wear me out, like hardcore. I really wanted that job with Collin's company but that isn't gonna happen, I haven't heard from them and doubt I will at this point. I could look at other places, but the only reason I'd leave is if I got a job at Collin's company.
Maybe I am just in a rut. I know the grass ain't always greener, but less responsibilities for better pay sounds like heaven. In some ways I feel like I have peaked here, but looking for other prospects is next to impossible while working Monday thru Friday 8-5pm. Plus, part of me would feel guilty... Don't ask I can't explain it.
I know Collin will support me, regardless what I decide. And I am pretty confident that Renee would understand and our friendship wouldn't change, but how would I even tell the owners if I got an interview. They constantly tell me they don't want me to ever leave. I know all jobs have their bad days, but it shouldn't be this much of a headache everyday.
A big part of the dark place I am in right now can be contributed to the stress at work. But also I have these moments where I feel like I have lost all my friends (except for Renee and Kristina). There are a couple of reasons for this but I really don't want to go into that, because it dredges up stuff from the past.
Maybe it's all my hair's fault.
Every couple of years I get the urge to cut most of my hair off. I am feeling that way right now. There is just so much of hair. In September I plan to go in and get it colored and trimmed. Maybe I will go in on Saturday and get an inch or so trimmed off.
I think I have a salon addiction. I love getting my hair done. Up until the highlights in June I hadn't done anything to it except for a trim in December and getting my bangs in November (I think).
The leaves on the tree outside my bookkeeping office (it's actually behind the ARC but I can see it from the window) are turning yellow. I think it's a sign of Summer's impending retreat.
Renee and I watch Maury everyday at lunch, and they have a bajillion commercials for those schools like Heald, Everest, Apollo, etc. Most of the time they talk about the shitty lives they had before and blah blah blah, and then they became licensed massage therapists and life is so much better (this is generally Everest). Then at the end they show the number to call (operators are standing by to help you) and make the asenine statement "If she can do it, you can do it." My Question to them: Are you saying to can train a person with NO hands to be a licensed massage therapist? Would they use their feet?
Whenever the new Acura commercials come on I always think of Office Space, it had the same song.
I am so done.
A word of warning, this blog was written through out the day on scraps of paper as I thought of things I felt like talking about. Lately, I just haven't had time to get online during lunch, so I have started "taking notes" during the day. I doubt they will all make sense....
I wish my Dr. Pepper can sang to me while I drank it. Between sips obviously.
My mind is in a dark place today. There were a few moments where I just felt like screaming. I talked to someone briefly this morning and it made me feel a lot better, but still not great.
I think I am a glutton for punishment.
I love where I work, and the people I work for, but it's really starting to wear me out, like hardcore. I really wanted that job with Collin's company but that isn't gonna happen, I haven't heard from them and doubt I will at this point. I could look at other places, but the only reason I'd leave is if I got a job at Collin's company.
Maybe I am just in a rut. I know the grass ain't always greener, but less responsibilities for better pay sounds like heaven. In some ways I feel like I have peaked here, but looking for other prospects is next to impossible while working Monday thru Friday 8-5pm. Plus, part of me would feel guilty... Don't ask I can't explain it.
I know Collin will support me, regardless what I decide. And I am pretty confident that Renee would understand and our friendship wouldn't change, but how would I even tell the owners if I got an interview. They constantly tell me they don't want me to ever leave. I know all jobs have their bad days, but it shouldn't be this much of a headache everyday.
A big part of the dark place I am in right now can be contributed to the stress at work. But also I have these moments where I feel like I have lost all my friends (except for Renee and Kristina). There are a couple of reasons for this but I really don't want to go into that, because it dredges up stuff from the past.
Maybe it's all my hair's fault.
Every couple of years I get the urge to cut most of my hair off. I am feeling that way right now. There is just so much of hair. In September I plan to go in and get it colored and trimmed. Maybe I will go in on Saturday and get an inch or so trimmed off.
I think I have a salon addiction. I love getting my hair done. Up until the highlights in June I hadn't done anything to it except for a trim in December and getting my bangs in November (I think).
The leaves on the tree outside my bookkeeping office (it's actually behind the ARC but I can see it from the window) are turning yellow. I think it's a sign of Summer's impending retreat.
Renee and I watch Maury everyday at lunch, and they have a bajillion commercials for those schools like Heald, Everest, Apollo, etc. Most of the time they talk about the shitty lives they had before and blah blah blah, and then they became licensed massage therapists and life is so much better (this is generally Everest). Then at the end they show the number to call (operators are standing by to help you) and make the asenine statement "If she can do it, you can do it." My Question to them: Are you saying to can train a person with NO hands to be a licensed massage therapist? Would they use their feet?
Whenever the new Acura commercials come on I always think of Office Space, it had the same song.
I am so done.
2 comments:
I will definitely support any decision you make sweetie. You crazy nut you.
LMAO...so many random thoughts throughout the day, I love it! Any ways, I still hope that you hear back from the job and that they are just lazy assholes. Secondly...I am so your friend!! I can't wait to see you in December. Thirdly...Maury so kicks ass! So much baby mama drama...tis awesome!! Love ya!
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